Happy Birthday SHIMIN !
Alrighty, it's like a 01.02am right now. First of all, a HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY to my darling SHIMIN! and just now, i went to celebrate Mel's 17th birthday too. So, a HAPPY belated birthday to him. Yea. Okay, i know it's late, and there's school tomorrow but somehow i couldnt get to sleep. It've been this way for quite a few days ready. Anyway yea, went out with Weiyan awhile and met up with Sock Leng and then, headed to celebrate Mel's birthday. Somehow, i think we shouldnt be there. I mean, yea.. Sock could have said earlier so as to save all the troubles. Seriously, i hope Elijah doesnt mind at all. But if he did mind, seriously, i dont blame him either. But somehow i didnt regret going cos' i FINALLY get to talk to sock leng!! I mean yea, share problems, that's what we always do. It've been such a long time since i last poured my sorrows on her. Seriously, i dont expect any solutions from anyone cos' no one can solve it except myself? At least Sock Leng just listens. Not like some other people who pretend that they understand me and the whole situation and go on giving all the irrelevant solutions which in the end, caused more troubles for me. i know it's all about concern, but yea dont over do it. Anyway, yea. I'm pretty troubled NOW with god knows what. But, if no one knows, now i'm trying to be a really nice girlfriend, or perhaps, as nice as i can be? i dont know if i'll be able to do it or not, but i'm gonna TRY. Just like my determination to lose weight and i did it! oh crap, that's not important. Anyway, as i was saying. I'm gonna TRY to be a good girlfriend. I'm gonna go low on the jealousy part and of course i wont approach my baby unless he comes to me. Seriously, after reading the book on "Mens are from Mars and Women are from Venus" Somehow i've got mixed up somewhere. I'm quite confuse really. I mean, am i to follow what the book says? Or am i to go for what i think is right? But finally, i've made up my mind to follow the book. I mean, i hope he finally sees the good intentions and yea, perhaps be a lil' more loving to me? Perhaps is just one of those times where he doesnt want me there for now? i dont know? But yea, i'm trying to do my part (hopefully i'm doing it right) and i hope he does his too. Cos' somehow i know, it doesnt work in one way. That's when the saying comes in : "It takes two hands to clap." I cant possibly work things out alone. oh maybe i can, but i'll be somewhat suffering on my side, right? and it's unfair to me? But well, seriously, i love elijah too much for anything. (acting tough) Oh well, i'll see how things go. People, please pray for me that things WILL get better between Elijah and myself. I somehow miss those lovey lovey times we had and of course, i miss spending time with him. Or should i say.. the OLD times? TIME.. there's all we need i guess. and there's what i'm gonna give for our relationship. And yea, i'll be off to china in about 10 days time? I DON'T WANT TO! but seriously, no point brooding over it right? It's not like it's not comfirmed? Oh well, tomorrow's gonna be a better day................... (right?)
With love, on Friday, June 02, 2006
xxx This scene is DEAD xxx
xxx This scene is DEAD xxx
